Where Are You? {a prayer}

Wishing things were the way they once were

Why do I have to be tormented with the taste of the past?

When things were happy and bright

Not a worry in sight

Now troubles are many

Things have grown more difficult

Why can't I seem to find You God?

You seem so distant

I need You more now than it shows

Nobody understands me like You

You listen to my deepest prayer 

You are my best friend when others aren't there

You've never given up on me when I've given up on myself

You've shown me love when all I've had was hate

You've reminded me what a second chance truly is

You've given me love when all I had left was anger

The future ahead leaves me feeling upset

I don't know how I'll get through and I just want to take the easy path

You've always had the best in mind for me

You've never done anything to harm me

Even when friends left and I was neglected

Still You were there and made me feel important

When life got hard and choices were tough 

You directed me in the way that was truly for the best

You never let me down when everyone else seemed to

You had a plan beyond my small ideas

Just when I thought You were out of Your mind

Just when I though You were trying to give me a hard time

I then realized just how much You were protecting me

I realized just how much You loved me

I realized You've always been there for me

But, now I finally can see that I was the one who wasn't there for You.