It's been a little while since I last posted. I guess I just haven't felt the need to post, not sure why?
Lately I've been struggling with trying to find myself and be happy with who I am. I'm not sure if it is just me or not but it sure seems like everyone is in a relationship (especially when I'm at college). I feel like it has just been rubbed in my face a lot lately and it leaves me feeling lonely, unqualified, ugly and neglected.
I continually have to remind myself that I don't need to be in a relationship to feel needed, qualified or worthy. God has shown me that He is all I need. He has always been enough for me in the past and He will continue to be until He brings the right guy along.
I also feel like I have been focusing on so many earthly things recently and not focusing on my relationship with God as much. It could be with all the constant changes from college and now being on break for Christmas. It's just hard to find God with my surroundings changing so much. I know I should be relying on God for so many things right now but it just seems like I haven't been going to Him like I used to. Somehow when I'm writing on here it seems to draw me closer to Him. I guess that is why I decided to write something today.
This time of the year also reminds me to be thanking God for all that He has done in my life. He has provided so many things for me and my family and Has never left my side once. I'm so thankful for the family He has given me and I can come home to them when college leaves me feeling empty and hurt. It sure is nice knowing that there are people who love you no matter what and will always be there. God truly is one of those amazing people!
So if you feel like you have been focused on the raise you want, caught up in your grades, wanting to be in a relationship or just trying to feel accepted- remember there is more to life than those things. Some things will only bring you temporary pleasure whereas a relationship with God will bring an everlasting treasure that will never be wasted. Keep God the center of your life. Ask Him to keep you focused on what really matters and pray for Him to guide you where He wants you to go. God has perfect timing and knows what is best. He has a perfect plan for your life and knows what you can or cannot handle. Right now may seem hard but in the end it will all make sense!