I've always been the kind of girl who wasn't very girly or stylish. I just woke up, threw my hair up and grabbed something to wear. Growing up I was a tomboy and didn't like getting dressed up or being fancy (I still don't..haha). When all the other girls at school started wearing makeup it didn't even phase me of trying to fit in or wear it too. I was allowed to wear it, but it was something I wasn't into and I chose not to wear it. I still feel the same way about wearing makeup. Since highschool I've paid a little more attention to what I wear and how I look. I am not the type of person who would like to spend the time putting on black goop in the morning and taking it off at night ( also the money spent on it is another thing.)
But the main reason why I don't wear makeup isn't because of the money, preparation or lack of desire (while all those do play a part in it). I choose not to wear makeup because of the way it makes me feel. When I wear makeup I feel fake. I don't feel true to who I am. I feel like I am putting something on my body that shows that I don't think I'm pretty enough without. It's like I need some black cosmetic to make me beautiful. I'm in no way saying that I'm pretty without makeup, but I don't want a material item to define my beauty and cover up who I really am.
I've had a scar on my face since I was a little girl and it's always been something I've felt insecure about. There were many times that I have thought about using makeup to cover it up. But then I realized that I would just be covering up part of who I am. Why should I have to cover up a part of me to make me more acceptable and beautiful for other people? If people can't accept me without makeup then they would be accepting me for the wrong purpose- on appearance only. I think there is so much more to someone beyond the appearance or beauty of their outer appearance.
Please know that I have no hard feelings against makeup, but for me makeup just feels like another way to cover up myself and make me someone who I'm not. I feel like when I wear makeup it's like I'm putting on a mask. If people accept me and I feel like I fit in I would feel like I'm not truly being accepted for myself, but for the mask I'm wearing. I've never worn makeup and so far I don't plan to. It's not because I think I don't need it (I'm sure I need it more than most people) but I just don't feel comfortable wearing it. I don't feel like I'm me. I want to be real with people. While there are many times I feel inferior and sometimes feel ugly since I don't wear makeup I remind myself that I don't need something to make me feel beautiful when God has created me exactly who I am and loves me just the way I am.
I often feel like guys won't like me if I don't wear makeup, but I tell myself that my husband will definitely be seeing me without makeup, so if he doesn't accept me without makeup now then he probably won't be the guy for me. I often wonder why guys don't wear makeup but girls do? Guys still look attractive without makeup, but we think girls need makeup to make them beautiful- why do we think that? It's so weird.
So if you feel like you need to wear makeup to fit in or feel beautiful, it's not true- you can be beautiful without makeup. We get so many pressures of who we should look like and what we should wear, but that's not what it's all about. We should just be who God made us to be, even if we have imperfections and scars. Scars and imperfections aren't bad- it just shows who we are and what has impacted us throughout our lives. Why should we cover up part of who we are?
My challenge to you- go out this week and don't wear makeup for a day. See how it makes you feel. It may feel weird at first, but if you make more of an effort to put less makeup on each day it might become easier to get acquainted to it.
Hopefully you all didn't mind reading my thoughts on this. I just felt like it was something God was calling me to share!