Do you ever feel disconnected. Like the world wouldn't even realize if you left? Do you ever feel like others don't listen to anything you say? Like every word you say is just thrown out into a void.
Usually when I'm around others I feel like all I do is listen. Listen to their thoughts. Listen to their petty details. Listen intently and try to understand them. I try so hard to listen. But sometimes it seems like nobody else ever does the same. How come it's so hard to find others who listen? care? understand? It seems like I get a limit of 2 minutes to speak and let out all that I'm feeling and once that 2 minutes is up, well, that's it! no more listening. I have to quick get everything out while they take a breath before they start up again. I may let out my heart, my bad day, my feelings into that 2 minutes and all I usually seem to get is a stare and then they start back onto their thoughts again- no understanding or caring whatsoever.
Something I try to do when I talk is to be real. To be honest about my life. I don't like being fake. I don't like when people are fake with me. I don't expect others to have a perfect life because mine is far from ever being perfect. It frustrates me when I try to open up with others but they just keep acting like their life is 100% perfection. Nobody is perfect so why do we always pretend to act like everything is going great when inside we are all trying to feel accepted or we feel like we are falling apart.
My challenge this week (with me included) is to be real. Be honest. Be understanding. And just listen. Instead of talking and going on about yourself, just listen to someone. Just listen to God. Don't talk- just listen. Maybe there has been something He has been trying to tell you but you just haven't had the time. Maybe someone needs to let something out but nobody else took the time to listen. Go out today and be honest about your life, be honest about your feelings and take time to listen more. Just be still and listen.