So I just want to start off and say that I'm sorry that my posts haven't been as heartfelt recently. Life has been pretty crazy and I haven't had much time to just sit down and write a post. My mind hasn't been focused lately and I feel like other things and events have been getting intertwined with my blog. But hopefully some of that will be winding down and I can get back on schedule!
Lately I feel like there is just so much going on and I want it to end. I can't take everything that God has been laid on my plate recently...life just seems so hard and difficult. Just the little things add up and I once I try to accept something- another thing goes wrong. Yesterday I accidentally deleted around 100 comments from my blog and now I can't get them back....it was very depressing but quickly slipped my mind since other things were happening and the disappointment was thrown out of my thoughts (which could be a good thing).
But anyways....something I've been struggling with a lot recently is comparing myself to other people. I mainly compare myself to others by outer appearance....
Do I look as pretty as them?
If I wore clothes like them would I be popular?
If I had as many friends as they do would I finally be able to accept myself?
If I did my hair like that would I look beautiful?
If I had a nice car would I feel more important?
Do I have a likeable personality?
How come others look good in pictures, but I look terrible?
Thoughts have been constantly running through my head of whether people like me and think I'm a neat person. Maybe you have been thinking that too....I have to constantly remind myself that what others think does not even matter compared to what God thinks of me. It is good to want to make a good impression- but we shouldn't let others change who we are. Don't be afraid to be yourself and be different. Don't let others change who you are just because you feel like you are not like them.
The first thing that helps others accept us is if we accept ourselves and love ourselves first. If you don't feel confident in yourself- it will be hard for others to accept you too. I have so much trouble with this area- especially when I feel like I look ugly. Outer appearance is not everything in being a beautiful person. That is usually only the first thing people notice. But, the biggest part in being a beautiful person is to have a beautiful heart full of love and sincerity. When your heart is filled with pure love and goodness- that beauty will shine through and will give you a pure radiance from within you.
Just know that when you feel like you are not pretty or handsome like people in the magazines, friends or celebrities- know that God created you EXACTLY how He wanted you to be and He sure did not make a mistake when He created you. Don't change yourself into a person who is fake on the outside....be real, be authentic, and most of all....be you! You are beautiful and lovely in God's eyes and you are never unloved or rejected by Him. So if you are feeling neglected or despised with yourself right now- know that God thought of a beautiful person who possessed many fabulous qualities and looked ravishing and put them all into one fantastic person and created YOU!
***So go out there today and be the fabulous person God created you to be...don't be afraid to be yourself- be confident in who you are and don't be afraid to show the real you!***