Just when you thought you were through the worst, something reminds you of your past and hints of the memories come back again. The good. The bad. You thought you just overcame the pain and suffering and the memories come flooding back in, taunting you to open that door again.
Often times I experience struggling in my life that really tests my perseverance. I question what God is doing in my life. Even through the pain of the situation, God somehow always seems to pull me through. There are times though when I just can't seem to let go. Memories come flooding in and it's hard to just let it go. To let go of what might have been. To let go of once was. To let go of the anger and frustration. To let go of how my life used to be. To let go of the memories.
I've been struggling to let go of things in my life. I've given them over to God, but I feel like they often times they keep coming back again, placing an ache on my heart that I wish I could somehow overcome. I've asked God many times "Why can't I let go of this? Why is this so hard?" It's been a struggle to move on, but most of all, it's been a struggle to know that God's plan is best. I've been reminiscing in my past and finding hurt in situations that didn't go as I had planned.
This is where I get stuck. I look at things from my perspective. I focus on the things that hurt and wonder why God directed me to where I am. I grow disappointed with my life and fail to see God's direction. When I choose to go where God instructs me to go I don't have to be discouraged with my life. I have to remember that God has chosen this time of my life to use my current circumstances to teach me something. To use my life as an inspiration to the people I come in contact with.
When you begin to feel discouraged with your life and you have trouble letting go of past circumstances remember something. God has a purpose. Not just a good purpose, but a great purpose! He chose to place you where you are right now for a reason. When we choose to do what is right, try our best and seek God we can rest assured that no matter what we face, it is for our best. It is helping us to grow. It is an opportunity for us to strengthen our character. It is a blessing (yes, I said a blessing) to grow closer to God through what may seem to be like a time of discouragement in your present circumstances.
Remember, don't grow disheartened in your present circumstances. When we are too focused on our past or future we are hindering ourselves in the present. We are missing opportunities. If you are struggling letting go of a circumstance, take it to God. Even if you've taken it to Him many times. God loves a persistent heart that is willing to submit and surrender. The pain and weight of the burden you are carrying isn't only yours to carry. God is there to take it away and relieve you from what is piercing your heart. Ask God to take all the pain. All the stress and worries. Remember, He is with you even when it seems like you are all alone. He is working.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and He will straighten your path.