1.15.2015

Feeling Lost & Uncertain

Do you ever feel like you are starting a whole new season of life but there's so much to learn that you just don't know where to start? You feel like everyone else is well on their way to success and you are still trying to find out where you belong?

There's so much to learn and you wonder how you'll ever arrive to where everyone else is. Your hopes and dreams seem to be aimed too high and you begin to wonder if they are even possible. You are afraid of the future that lies ahead because you feel like you won't make it.

You wish your life had some meaning to it and all you feel is emptiness. Everyday is the same struggle and you are left each night hoping maybe tomorrow will be better. 

Do you ever just get tired of everything? nothing seems worthwhile? everything you do seems like a mess. tired of dealing with the same problems? tired of all your flaws and mistakes?


I guess recently I was just waiting to start up the life I had always dreamed about. Becoming a graphic designer out of college and starting my own business has been something I've aspired to do for some time now. Lately it just seems like it's dragging and I'm losing ammunition to keep going. I feel like everything I learned in college is now just put on hold and is fading away. I feel like I'm stuck in a place where I can't seem to find where God wants me.

I'm one of those people who likes everything planned out and certain. I know God's really testing me right now with the the plans for my future. I don't have anything figured out and it's driving me insane. But maybe when I feel in the least control that is when I realize just how much I need God. Our lives weren't made to be perfect. Without the hard times or bad days we wouldn't see God work or rely on Him. I know that the uncertainty is hard to deal with right now, but if it's allowing me to grow closer to God and lean on Him it is worth it. The things I do in this life are menial compared to my relationship with God.

Sometimes I allow others to get a hold of me too. I get all caught up in what people think. I look too deeply into people's motives and words and often I take things too seriously. Usually just when I'm beginning to feel accepted by someone I go and mess something up and I feel terrible about myself and what they might think of me. Knowing God will never change is one of my favorite characteristics about God. Also, knowing His view of me will never change is so reassuring. I mess up so many times and I feel like such a failure, but even when I feel like the dumbest person God still looks on me with love and admiration. He accepts me even when I don't accept myself.

So if you feel like your future is uncertain and you wonder what God's doing with your life right now, just take a few minutes and go to Him in prayer. Ask Him to show you the way and to work through all your situations and plans. It may seem like a mess right now, but if it's God's will it is a worthy mess that is allowing you to draw closer to Him. Remember He always loves you no matter what you've done or how many mistakes you've made.

9 comments:

  1. wow, this was awesome! Sometimes I just feel..stuck I suppose. I really needed this. Thanks, looking forward to more posts! :D

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    1. thanks Sarah! Glad you enjoyed it! Thank you for your comment!! :)

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  2. "He accepts me even when I don't accept myself" I truly needed this beautiful advice today. Thank you. <3

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    1. Katie, thanks so much for your comment! :)

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  3. Thanks so much for this post! I've been going through this, so I really appreciate your encouragement! Two things that my mom has been telling me is "Keep your focus where it needs to be - Christ" and "God only gives you one day at a time, so just ask Him for guidance for that day, and if in the process He gives you guidance for the future, then take it as a bonus." Something else that has encouraged me in this time is knowing that when God does give an answer, it won't be too late!

    Thanks again!
    ~Elizabeth

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    1. Thanks so much for your comment and your words of wisdom! :) I needed to hear that!

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  4. Your words are so refreshing, I am always encouraged. Thank you so much, seriously I can't even explain.-Bethany!

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    1. Aww, thanks so much Bethany! :) Glad you were encouraged!!

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  5. Thanks so much for this post! I've been meaning to comment more - you're posts are always so encouraging and exactly what I need! ♥
    And before I forget - I awarded you on my blog. =) http://savedbygrace7.blogspot.com/2015/01/an-award-from-me-to-you.html

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