So sorry that I haven't posted in such a long time. I feel like there has been so much going on and have been feeling like I don't have the inspiration to post. I feel like I don't even know what to write to express the feelings and circumstances I've been experiencing. I keep reminding myself that God knows exactly what I'm feeling and going through- I only wish I knew what I was feeling too. Feelings and emotions have been so mixed up within me these past few days and I just can't take the chaos another minute. I have been needing God so much lately it's unreal. So many things I've been going to Him with prayer about, but it seems like everything has been put on hold.
In my devotions today it mentioned about pitying ourselves. How many times I have pitied myself and asked God "why? why me? don't you see how hard this is?"....the questions continue on. But how often do I remember how many other people are going through things much harder than I am. People are losing loved ones everyday across the world fighting for our country, people are suffering through cancer and chemo, children are dying from malnutrition in so many countries. Here I am feeling lonely and heartbroken, while others who are suffering actually have a reason to be upset.
During this time of year I should be thankful for all that God has blessed me with and allowed me to attain. He has given me a family that is truly amazing, great friends, the Bible, a warm home, and most of all an eternal life!! I have so very much to be thankful for. Maybe take a few minutes today or over the next few and just write out a list or say a small prayer to God of the great things He has blessed you with. You will find that the list is a lot longer than you may have thought.