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11.07.2012

Bible Study {week 5}

So, it's time for another Bible Study Linkup! : )


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So, this week I decided that you all could pick a book in Psalms that you choose to analyze and write about. I love the book of Psalms since it always has some essential words in the chapter I read each night that applies exactly to how I'm feeling. So, I'm going to do my chapter, feel free to take any book (or select verses) in Psalms and write what it means to you or how it applies to you!! : )

Here are my thoughts on PSALM 38. I really can take a lot out of this passage and have gone through many of these experiences in the words David wrote.

Verses 4-9
My guilt has overwhelmed me
    like a burden too heavy to bear.
 My wounds fester and are loathsome
    because of my sinful folly.
 I am bowed down and brought very low;
all day long I go about mourning.
  My back is filled with searing pain;
    there is no health in my body.
 I am feeble and utterly crushed;
    I groan in anguish of heart.
 All my longings lie open before you, Lord;
    my sighing is not hidden from you.

Here it talks about guilt and how it overtakes a person. I have experienced deep guilt of things I have done in my life and it really impacted me and caused me to become weak and cast down. I was burdened and it caused my heart to have a considerable weight that I could not bear any more. At that point, I just had to pray to God and ask Him to help me remove the guilt and give it to Him. Many times I may have asked for forgiveness from God for my sins and actions, but I couldn't seem to forgive myself for what I did. This is the type of guilt that weighs me down most and causes me to grow weak. But I know that when I feel this way I can go to God and ask Him to take it all away. If God can forgive me, I should be able to as well. In verse 9 it also mentions about He knows all that we are going through and sees how much our heart is aching. How great it is to know that He understands how we feel and can relate to our issues!

Verses 10-15, 20
My heart pounds, my strength fails me;
    even the light has gone from my eyes.
 My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds;
    my neighbors stay far away.
 Those who want to kill me set their traps,
    those who would harm me talk of my ruin;
    all day long they scheme and lie.
 I am like the deaf, who cannot hear,
    like the mute, who cannot speak;
 I have become like one who does not hear,
    whose mouth can offer no reply.
 Lord, I wait for you;
    you will answer, Lord my God.
Those who repay my good with evil
    lodge accusations against me,
    though I seek only to do what is good.

In verses 10-15 and 20 really impact me as well. So many times in my life I have felt like my strength is gone and I can't continue on. I just can't offer any more love and I feel so incredibly tired out of helping people. I feel like I am unloved by the people that I want to be accepted by and I often feel like everyone doesn't like me for who I am and they don't accept me.
In my life I have had many friends who took advantage of me and because I was shy I didn't stand up to them and they really hurt me. It made me feel insignificant and "used" and it really lowered my already low self esteem. It made me feel so hurt inside that people who I thought were my friends could turn on me and leave me in the dust and they would go off with more popular kids and treat me like nothing and just wanted me only when there was nobody else around for them to talk to.

Verses 16-19
 For I said, “Do not let them gloat
    or exalt themselves over me when my feet slip.”
 For I am about to fall,
    and my pain is ever with me.
 I confess my iniquity;
    I am troubled by my sin.
 Many have become my enemies without cause;
    those who hate me without reason are numerous.

In verses 16-19- throughout my life I feel so incredibly stupid at times and make mistakes in front of so many people and I feel like a complete idiot and I lose confidence because of my constant mistakes. In these times, some people have criticized me and made fun of those already embarrassing mistakes and it crushes my spirit and makes me feel even more discouraged and upset with myself.

Verses 21-22
 Lord, do not forsake me;
    do not be far from me, my God.
 Come quickly to help me,
    my Lord and my Savior.

In verses 21-22- these last few verses give me hope of God's provision after reading all these verses above in the chapter. It reminds me that God will be there to help me through. I just have to keep waiting and seeking Him. He will help me through and even though I may not understand what He is doing- things one day will be set right. All those unfair treatments of others, hurtful words said, mean glares, all those moments of sharing God with others, everything that was done in and through our lives will someday be acknowledged.

Well, I hope that you enjoyed reading my thoughts on the verses in Psalms 38. I can't wait to read what you all come up with and choose as your Psalm that you choose to analyze!! : )

5 comments:

  1. This was beautiful, and I have to say that your blog was well named. I also struggle with guilt. So thank you! : )
    Tane ♥

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    1. Aww...thanks so much Tane!! Thank you for reading it and for your comment!! : )

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  2. This is such a precious psalm. You have made a nice, personal Bible made​​. Some things are very recognizable to me( what you write about verses 10-15 and 20) Thank you. Through the Psalms we look each other in the heart.

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    1. Aww..thanks so much Ima!! glad you enjoyed it!! Glad you could apply to it as well. Thanks for your comment!

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  3. Wow I really love your blog. This is what I'm also experiencing right now and it's not easy. I thank God that I am always encouraged by reading His word and blogs like this. Psalm is one of my favorite book in the Bible. Thank you and God bless!

    calvaryoakville

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