When My Thoughts Grow Restless [Poem]

My mind continually pulls me into a trap of deceptive thoughts

Leaving my stomach anxious and tied up in knots

I grow fearful of the future and uncertain of what lies ahead

Sometimes I become so lonely on the path that I tread

Where are You Lord? What are You doing?

Sometimes the plan You have for me can feel so confusing

Questions arise that keep my mind up wandering all night

Thoughts that leave me doubting and wanting to give up the fight

Buried hurts that run so deep, they feel like more than I can take

Why won't time seem to cure this penetrating ache?

Each new struggle is another blow on a wounded heart

Allowing the memories to come rushing back in and tear me apart

Wondering what good is coming from this enduring struggle

Seems like my hope and strength are beginning to crumble

My life feels so uncertain and unclear

Lord, please give me wisdom to not give up and to preservere

Remind me to focus only on Your perception of me,

Because You look so much deeper than what the world can see

When I feel like this world rejects me and I don't belong

Be my strength, O Lord, help me remain strong

Don't let me lose heart when thoughts attack and prevail

Help me remember that You never forsake and Your love never fails

Give me direction and fill me with Your peace

Help me give over the worries on my heart and let my suffering cease

Abolish all thoughts that haunt me of these painful memories

Don't let me fall into Satan's deceptive treachery

Restore my focus to be set on You

Help me overcome, please see me through

Take my life and use it for something of worth

Help me live for eternity, do what's right, and not focus on things of this earth

Give me the strength to let go and hand over my burdens to You,

Because I know that You're the only One that will see me through

Thank You for always remaining by my side

And desiring to love me for who I am on the inside

You value my worth and understand my every heartbreak

And when the world rejects me, I know You will never fail or forsake

You delve deep inside and see my heart

You aren't afraid to remain close even when I'm feeling broken and torn apart

Take my life and use it to fulfill Your plan

Because I know You're using the uncertainty and painful things in far better ways than I can ever comprehend!