Looking Back {poem}

Thinking of you today

If you were here I wonder what you'd say

I've been missing you more recently

Thinking of you more frequently

It was hard when you missed my high school graduation

And the day college began

I wish you could have been there to comfort my mom on the day you left

That day was so hard for her, but I know she was relieved that you were finally at rest

None of us were the same after that day

I wish you were were there to tell me everything would be okay

Now as I look back I can see that God was taking care of everything

What I thought was a tragedy God was using as a blessing

There are so many days that are hard without you here

I wish that you could ease my worries and cast away my fears

I know that since you've gone I've changed

I've seen the inside of myself shift and rearrange

Sometimes I want the old me back again

Back to how things had been

Back before I felt true pain

Everyday there's something else you miss in my life

Another day I need you to help me get through the stress and strife

I miss you dad, more and more with each passing day

Please know my love for you will never, ever fade

I hope my life can be something you're proud of

And that maybe you can see what I'm doing from up above

I'm so glad that you and God are both my fathers

And that God's blessed me with an amazing sister and one awesome mother

God, you've blessed me with such a great family

Help me to remain thankful for all that You've done for me

I know You are taking care of my dad

And You have been working through my life even when times were bad

Please continue to use my life for Your glory

Let it be used to touch others lives and not just focused on me

Cause when I reach heaven I want my dad and You to say you are proud of the life I lived